I already experience how to love. How to love and to be loved by someone. But theres a point that we decided to go with are own life, to be separated in some reason. I just need to do it just to make him happy, or to set him free. But not knowing that I hurt him in some reasons, I don't know why but I keep swallowing my stupid pride. I know that I still love him, but I keep pushing myself away from him. I hate myself for doing that. Yes, I do love him.
After a months (11 months to be exact), I made up my mind to talk with him again. But then (ouch) theres someone new, and it made me cry harder. Harder and harder. But still I talk to him (just in chat/message). Then the day after that, there was a reply, that made my heart beat faster and faster. I don't know why, but there is a huge pressure inside of me.
After I read it, I discover that he never forget me, NEVER! The same thing I feel for him. I still do, and always do. The love, the spark, is still there. But suddenly, I fell so much a touched with him that I made something wrong. I thought that he can't be with someone else, because he loves me. But then, I was wrong. He's with her ='( made me cry.
This was the story guys..
He told me this, "I love you, I need you, I want you. I still do!"
I replied, "If you love me, why don't you let her go? ='(" (crying at that moment)
He said, "I need to explain with her, I don't want you to be the one who be blamed, please wait. i still love you. Do you feel the same"
I was really hurt that I made a stressful decision. But now, I made up my mind. I will fight. 'Cos I love him.
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